"because some things are supposed to be as it is" those words were on my mind, all day and all night, repeating endlessly. Perhaps, I think too much, but that's me, I just think too much. Few things are not needed to be change, are not needed to be fixed, so do us, so do you and I, no change is needed. It's okay to just stay like this, keep on avoiding and ignoring me, go ahead. I won't mind, because I know I can fix nothing. Nothing is a strong word, it is. Especially for me, when you said I was nothing, my heart was literally broken, into thousand and million pieces, I kept it cool, of course. Cause I don't want to show how I feel, deep inside.

Maybe, I should just shut the hell up, maybe I should just keep a wall between us, maybe I should just disappear from your life. Maybe, I should have done this before today. I don't know what to say, what to do. I was technically confused by that time, I've never been like this before, this year has changed me a lot, yes, I've learned so many things this year, it's a bitter sweet memories that I've gone through. I've lost the most important person ever, my own bestfriend, I went through super painful heart ache. I speak for the right, I fight for my own right. People think its wrong, but I know I did the right thing, to speak what's right, to let go my one and only best friend. I expect nothing, just nothing, maybe I deserved all this, all of this that is happening to me. I've been too selfish, too proud for everything. At first I thought monsters were living inside other people but then again, I realized, monsters were living inside me. I thought she/he had the worst attitude, but then again, it was me, it was me that has the worst attitude. I just wish I can fix, but things are just so messed up to even fix.