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Save me. posted on Thursday, 14 June 2012 06:26 Maybe we shouldn't talk, befriend, smile look or anything. Maybe we should pretend we don't know each other, let's pretend my name isn't written your life dictionary. Let's pretend that I don't exist and you don't know me. Let's pretend like were a total stranger, just like the how life was easier when you didn't come in. Maybe I should never ever said hi to you from the first time. I was stupid. Yes I admit, I was and I am regretting it. It hurts a lot when you miss someone so so so much but you can't do anything. I've been a fool running into you, maybe. Wanted to make you thought that Im the right girl for you. I don't know why but I keep blaming myself for all this. All of this shit that we've build together y"know. And all I want to do now is to fix it. But, I can't. I can't, Im not strong. Truth is, I hate this, I really do. I feel like killing myself. I feel so depressed. I feel like I shouldn't be here, in this world. I don't know why, why why me? Why do I feel like this. I wasn't programmed to be perfect, please understand? Sometimes we have to fight to make it better. But I don't like it, it hurts. And I hate hurting your heart. I don't like it. Maybe I've changed, my behavior, my personality and Im not sure my feelings. Im not 500% sure about this but yes, I've changed. Maybe this is what I get for hurting people's feeling too much. But.. But.. but.. I guess karma is haunting me. Im just trying to share my thoughts. I swear, I miss Aina, I do. She was always there, was.. I changed school we're still in contact. But, I can't see her that much and it sucks. You know why? Because she's my lifesaver she saves me from crying, from worrying about stuffs that is seriously need to be worry about. And her laughs.. it lightens up my day. I miss her so so so much, I can die. Well, literally. A part of me just got weaken everytime I wish she's here with me. So I will force myself to open my eyes, to get my feet on the ground, because there's no more that one person who would remind me not to take advantage of everything that I have now I think maybe it's time for me to grow up and change my attitude. My baby attitude, I act like Im 5 but the truth is Im 15. FIF FUCKING TEEN. Wokay, that was harsh but still. There is always, ALWAYS hope. No matter what And where there is hope, there is faith, and where faith lies, so does a solution. ← older newer →	welcome Hello living things. Credits Appreciation is always the best Template handcoded by Twent yonekisses. Banners from Fairycandlesxo. Colors by El seven. Leave credits intact. Missing credits please inform me on my blog.