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Lost.
posted on Friday, 8 June 2012 22:41
 I don't really have the perfect word for what I'm feeling right now. It's hard. i've lost my inspiration to blog but guess what, after I went to this blog ---> http://shttowrdo.blogspot.com/ it opened my eyes to start blogging. I love how he used the words. It's so well, I still can't find the perfect word to describe it though. Things get worse when someone from your past comes back and haunt you with old memories. School holiday has been very very "dead bored" because it is filled with homeworks. How suck is that? I think the more you get to know someone, the more beautiful they become. You know why? Because that's what I feel with my family. I know them, I know them too much and all that I can see is they're beautiful. Sometimes, all I want to do is be with them, spend my whole day with them. But that will never happen, knowing the fact that they're busy. Too busy to spend their times with us. And it hurts so bad that sometimes we don't really have time to talk, to tell them about our daily life stories. To just, be with them and talk and chat. It hurts so bad sometimes all you want to do is just lock yourself up in your room and cry. How am I going to survive? How? From all of this? I don't know Im not sure if I can, it's too much for me to handle. Its killing me slowly and sometimes I feel like killing myself. One night, I had a dream I don't whether to call it nightmare or what. I died in my room, in my prayer. ya Allah, I don't know why but I see myself laying there on the "sejadah" with my telekung on and the worst part is nobody cares. It hurts, and when I woke up in the morning, my face was wet, it's full with tears and I was speechless. Im not sure, about all this. Things is just getting all tangled up. And I don't know why Im so scared. Funny how people judge me by the way I talk and the way I walk. |
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